hey everybody! i've been posting here since my senior year of high school in 2005. this site has provided me with so much comfort. fortunately, the past few years, i have been doing significantly better for the most part and have gone months and months between posting here. since this summer things have gotten really difficult for me though and i could use some words of wisdom right now.
some of y'all may remember me posting this summer about how i studied abroad in london and while i was there i got extremely, extremely sick- sicker than i have ever been in my life. when i came back to america i visited a doctor who ran some blood tests and said that the tests showed i had hyperthyroidism (and it turns out that all the symptoms i had while i was in london matched perfectly with the symptoms of hyperthyroidism.) furthermore, she said that she thought all the eye problems i've been having since i was 14 (SLK and dry eye) were probably connected to hyperthyroidism as well.... i was so relieved to here that there was FINALLY a reason for all my problems, but when i went for a followup a week later she said the blood work was normal and that i should see a specialist.
last week i finally had my appointment with an endocrinologist. she took one look at my old blood work, listened to me talk for less than a couple minutes and said, "You definitely have hyperthyroidism- you are the textbook example. I promise you were are going to get this all figured out and you are going to get better." Then she had me get tons of very, very specific blood work done. Hooray, right?! Wrong! I called the doctor this morning to get the results of my blood work and the blood work was were "barely normal." Therefore, there is still no official diagnosis. All they can do is do a few more tests.
I am so incredibly frustrated!!!! My whole body has been going nuts (specifically my eyes since I was so young) and no doctors can give me a reason for it. I know I'm not crazy, I know how my body feels. I have definitely been diagnosed with SLK and dry eye, and had blood work this summer that said my thyroid was very overactive. I just want a name or a reason for why my body is acting like this. I want to know that I will graduate from college and be able to have a regular full time job and find someone to be in a relationship with and all the other stuff that goes with being a post-grad 20-something knowing and that these health issues are not going to get in my way. I just feel like the older I get the more walls I keep running into when I try to lead a normal, productive life. I apologize for the lengthy post but I'm just having a really, really bad day.